All mixed up?!

Well the surgery went well on Thursday and I'm all recovered. I will admit I did cheat a little... I began eating solid food a day early but I couldn't wait! And I definitely felt ready.
I don't think I really said before but the reason I had my wisdom teeth out is because... wait for it... I'm getting braces! Hmmm. luckily they're invisalign ones so you can't really see them but they do make me speak a bit funny... Last night was my first night wearing them. It went well although I do have toothache. I guess that's how it's going to be for the next 2 years. I'm sure it will all be worth it! Well that's what I keep telling myself anyway.
Since coming back from England I've been feeling a little off kilter so I decided it was time to give meditation another go. I find it quite hard and my thoughts tend to jump around a lot but I guess discipline takes practise. I managed around 15 minutes before I gave up. I definitely felt more focused and relaxed for the rest of the day though. I think I'm missing my yoga sessions too. I'm restarting those on Thursday which I'm looking forward to!
This morning I was thinking a lot about how other people perceive me. Sometimes I feel like I'm two different people living in the same body. On one side there's this calm, (sometimes) patient, fairly quiet, reflective, grounded person who is quite spiritual, likes yoga, reading and meditation. Then there's this completely other Jo who can be quite wild, likes to party and makes all the wrong decisions. She is impatient, sometimes irrational, hot headed/tempered, over thinks everything and acts before engaging brain. Of course then there are all the shades in between and mixtures of the two. But which one am I?? Most of the time I don't even know myself. I mean, can I really be both?? At the same time?? How do I find a balance? Suggestions?
Later on in the day I went out to panera with the 13 year old I live with. As some of you know he has autism. He complained quite a bit before we went but when we arrived he was happy to sit and munch on a chocolate chip cookie and drink apple juice. These times are really nice because they're some of the only times he fully interacts with me. The rest of the time he's distracted by computer games or the tv. We talked a bit about children's English tv shows and he told me about some of the games he has been playing. While we were talking he kept taking hold of my hand and looking at me and giving me these big grins. Ahhh I love being able to be a part of his life.
The last thing I did was download some music from youtube. Whilst I did this I stumbled across a video by a girl with a mild form of autism. She was talking about autism and how it affects her life. It was refreshing to be able to see it from a different perspective. She talked a lot about wanting to help other people. A lot of people posted negative comments calling her a freak and lots of horrible things. It made me so sad to read what they wrote. After reading a few I had to stop. It was heartbreaking. I can't believe that in this day and age people are still so ignorant and cruel.
This lead her to post a video about how words hurt. People have told her to go commit suicide and lots of other terrible things. It made me feel so angry. Why? How can people live with themselves? On the flip side good for her for being such a strong person and continuing to post videos. Inspirational stuff.